June 29, 2001

2001年6月29日, 晴

聖桑b小調第三號小提琴協奏曲的絃音,有力而充滿感情地流泄在整個中庭大廳,伴著鋼琴聲,吸引著每一個人的注意。入院進行第一次化療的日子,碰巧是醫院內舉行音樂會的日子。挑高的中庭大廳裡,簡單地擺了一架鋼琴和幾十張椅子,2位少女進行著獨奏會,撫慰著病患及家屬們的心靈。坐著彈琴的是姊姊,穿著一襲綠色的仿古洋裝,站著拉小提琴的是妹妹,穿著紅色的同式洋裝,2個人就像是從雷諾瓦的畫中走出來的人物一樣。我坐到第一排,清楚地看見拉琴少女專注的表情,以及因使力而牽動的手臂肌肉,是那麼地有力而充滿生氣,美妙的音樂,是必須這樣充滿力量,才能盡情傳達出來的啊!音樂感人至深,我再一次的深深體會。真高興醫院能周到的為病人們安排這樣的音樂會。

看著紅色的化療藥劑打入血管裡,手臂一陣酸冷,那心情真是複雜到難以言喻。他們說我血管太細,扎了三針才打上,建議我裝置人工血管,因此安排了星期二開刀,在鎖骨下埋入一條人工血管,往後化療藥劑都將經由那裡打入。接著而來的,就是一連串的昏睡、噁心、無力、頭暈。我的腦海中不斷浮現孩子們可愛的笑容和他們清脆的笑聲,唯有如此,才能夠支持我強忍著噁心,努力的吞下每一份幫助我復原的營養。

9次的化療,已經完成了第一次,而每完成一次,就讓我感覺我和親人們又靠近了一些。骨掃描的結果,醫生說在胸椎上發現一個小小的陰影,必須作核磁共振以確定是不是蔓延出去的癌細胞,壘弱的身體,又要再一次等待宣判,我的人生,必須要咬緊牙關,繼續往前走。

Posted by 江映慧 at June 29, 2001 10:05 PM
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