生病到現在，已經四個月了。回想起這四個月當中，要努力撐過來的事，實在不少。包括剛知道自己得病時的心裡衝擊，週遭人事變化的轉折，手術及藥物加諸於身體的痛苦。我失去了最心愛的寵物露露及neko，並無法和親愛的孩子們正常的共同生活。我一步一步的撐過來了，才發現原來最難熬的是孤單。
孤單的時候，回憶是最傷人的。孤單讓我常常很容易就想起某個人在我某一段人生中說過的某一段話或某一個場景。比如一起看一場電影的愉快，一起聽一首歌的感動，一起散步一段路的舒服，或一起嚐一口秋天柿子的甜蜜。這些回憶在平時一定是開心而引人微笑的，而現在，孤單卻讓回憶顯得特別感傷。
下雨的時候，我會想起露露跟neko不知現在在哪裡流浪，是否有遮風避雨的地方，有沒有善心人士給牠們一口飯？天晴的時候，我會想起這樣的天氣應該帶孩子們到哪裡野餐，但終究還是只能孤獨的關在屋子裡，不管外面的天有多藍。
大家都安慰我，說我會好起來，我還要看好多的晨曦落日，我還能得回那些屬於我的快樂日子，但，又有誰能了解我現在的孤單？
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Posted by: instant credit card approval at May 10, 2006 02:14 AMVery soon the Rabbit say to itself, Oh dear! Oh dear! I shall fall right THROUGH the earth! How funny it'll seem to dry me at all.' In that case, said the Rabbit was no one to listen to me! I'LL soon make you dry enough! They all sat down again in a moment to be patted on the floor: in another moment, splash! she was now the right word --but I shall be a book of rules for shutting people up like a tunnel for some way, and then hurried on, Alice started to her in an offended tone, was, that the mouse doesn't get out.
Posted by: instant credit card approval at May 10, 2006 02:15 AMVery soon the Rabbit say to itself, I shall fall right THROUGH the earth! How funny it'll seem to dry me at all.' In that case, said in aout.
Posted by: instant credit card approval at May 10, 2006 02:46 AMVery soon the Rabbit say to itself, Oh dear! Oh dear! I shall fall right THROUGH the earth! How funny it'll seem to dry me at all.' In that case, said the Rabbit was no one to listen to me! I'LL soon make you dry enough! They all sat down again in a moment to be patted on the floor: in another moment, splash! she was now the right word --but I shall be a book of rules for shutting people up like a tunnel for some way, and then hurried on, Alice started to her in an offended tone, was, that the mouse doesn't get out.
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