我亲爱的万能神：
我从不曾相信你的存在，起码我从不相信你属于任何一个宗教。我不相信这世界上有一个或数个有着庞大力量却成日无所事事的神，时时刻刻深切关注着我们这些渺小的人类，把我们的一举一动纪录在一个本子上，给我们的善恶德行打份。好像奥林匹克裁判一样，在我们的短暂表演结束后，竖起一个个写着数字的小牌，彼此争执着，看最后的综合份是要我们上天堂还是下地狱。
不我不信那个。我不为死后的去处忧虑，不为来生今世而活。我为的是现在，为的是我脚下的这一趟旅程。
我相信这个世上如果有你存在的话，那么你是一种力量，充斥于天地之间，无知觉，无自我，有你自己的运行规律，存于世间，却不依附世间，纵横宇宙内外，你不会因人而异，你是真理，你是法则，你是世间一切美好事物的代名词，你是爱。
在过去的一年里，你赐予我很多。在2007年落幕前，我满怀欣喜地回想这一年来我所经历的一切。这是很奇异的一年，充满了意外，有好有坏。我想起了所有我相识并爱着的人，我想起我的朋友和家人。他们让我意识到我对自己还如此不了解。真与美一层层的显现在我眼前，这是你对我的恩宠。
如果说我对新的一年有什么愿望的话，那就是我希望我能有足够的力量去接受我被赐予的，去做我该做的事，当我该当的人，去找到我的命运、我在这世上应该充当的角色，去做这一切，并带着爱。请赐我智慧，使我明白怎样让自己的心灵永远敞开，让我爱周围的人更多一些。如果可以的话，请让世间人都拥有爱的自由，去寻找自我，寻找他人，并让我们和谐共处。
阿门。
My dear omnipotent God,
I've never believed in your existence, at least not in the sense of any religion. I've never believed that there exists one or several of You, capable of exercising enormous power over the fate of the living and yet have nothing better to do than to focus Your attention on us insignificant humans; that You record our every move and give scores on our relative merits like Olympic judges, raising little numbered placards at the end of our brief performance, arguing with each other about whether to send us to heaven or hell.
No, I don't believe in that. I never worry about the comings and goings of my soul -- if it exists -- after death. I don't believe in reincarnations and I don't live for any other life but this one, for the path currently under my feet.
I do believe that if You exist in this world, then You're a power filling heaven and earth, unconscious and unaware. You have Your own movement and rhythm. You exist in this world but are independent of it, Your visage immutable. You are Truth. You are Law. You represent all that is honest and good in this world. You are Love.
I have been blessed by You in this past year. It was a strange year, full of surprises both good and bad. Yet at its conclusion I stand in amazement at all that I have seen and experienced. I think about all the people that I have met and whom I have come to love. I think about my friends and family. I think about all the people who have helped me realize how little I know yet of myself. Layer after layer Truth and Beauty have revealed themselves to me, and for that I am blessed.
If there is one wish I have for the new year, it is that I will have enough strength to accept all that I am given, to do what I must, to be who I am, to find my destiny and place in this world, and to do it all with Love. Please give me wisdom, so that my heart may remain forever open to receive, so that I may love those around me a little more. And if You could, please grant everyone in this world the freedom to love and to seek the truth about themselves and others, so that we may all exist in harmony and peace.
Amen.
这个圣诞是回加州同家人一起过的。老天开眼，赐了四天的好天气，天天阳光灿烂，蓝蓝的天空没有一丝云。在加州温暖刺眼的阳光下我想起了很多过去的时光，以及共同度过那些时光的人。无数次的自驾车游，青山，大海，黄草，南部炎热干燥的沙漠，北部冬季凛冽的寒星，四季如春的湾区，一幢幢丑陋而又占地硕大的平房仓库，外面的颜色不是淡粉土黄就是粉白。在这阳光下我度过了我的青少年，我享受了生活，也痛苦过，我接到了阿杰去世的消息，我坐着古董车在欧克兰的街道上奔跑，我眺望远处山顶上纤细优美而又坚固的三叶白色风力发电机。海湾大桥，单巴顿大桥，圣马帝奥大桥，这些都是我的桥。
按照一般的标准，我算是加州的孩子。不管主观上如意还是不如意，客观来说我是幸运儿。我和我的家人来到了世界上最富有的国家，住在这个国家最富有的州，在这个州里最发达的地区用自己的手创造了一个非常舒适的家。我们所有的回忆，所有的经历，都是私人的，对旁人来说没有意义。旁人能懂的，只是眼所能见的这些客观条件。一个人的生命，最终来不过是一堆可公证的事实，哪年哪月哪里生，哪年哪月哪里卒，有时候甚至连哪里都没有纪录。所有的情感，所有的记忆，所有的片断，终将逝去。
而加州温暖的阳光，会一直照耀着这片美丽的土地。