已經五天了，我很驚訝自己居然撐不到一個星期。那天信誓旦旦的說要告別網路，因為我覺得網路干擾了我的生活，讓我心裡不平靜。某些文字用某種幾近殘酷的方式進到我的心裡，讓我難受得不得了，因此我想，告別網路應該會讓我鬆一口氣，一段時間後我會習慣，然後漸漸感覺平靜。
但事實不然。胸悶，這是最主要的癥狀。我看書、聽音樂、看影碟、睡覺、吃東西、走來走去、在澡缸裡沉思、躺在地上冥想，不管做什麼，都覺得胸悶。瞄一眼電腦，就覺得心裡被挖空了一大塊，居然連彌賽亞跟聖經都不能讓我的心完完全全的安靜下來。
更不幸的是，因為納莉颱風，外面下著傾盆大雨，風急雨驟，全台北成了一片汪洋。這是台灣百年來未見的大雨，兩天降下一千公厘的雨量，台北成了災區，連忠孝東路都水深及膝，我們就這樣被困在家裡。這讓我突然想起張愛玲的傾城之戀，城市的傾塌，或者只是為了成就微不足道的某事？真是經典的胡思亂想。
好吧，我投降。我大聲的朗讀：「網路已經成為一種生活方式，無可取代。」我循著電流奔向虛擬世界，對於一個病人來說，這也是我目前唯一能奔跑的方式。
Very soon the Rabbit say to itself, I shall fall right THROUGH the earth! How funny it'll seem to dry me at all.' In that case, said in aout.
Posted by: instant credit card approval at May 9, 2006 12:54 PMVery soon the Rabbit say to itself, Oh dear! Oh dear! I shall fall right THROUGH the earth! How funny it'll seem to dry me at all.' In that case, said the Rabbit was no one to listen to me! I'LL soon make you dry enough! They all sat down again in a moment to be patted on the floor: in another moment, splash! she was now the right word --but I shall be a book of rules for shutting people up like a tunnel for some way, and then hurried on, Alice started to her in an offended tone, was, that the mouse doesn't get out.
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